"She stood on the deck. Her hands were holding tightly to the railing. There was somehow a devilish look on her angelic face. Her lopsided smile added to the description. She couldnt keep her eyes off the beautiful island which had now a place full of hatred. The island gradually faded away as the ship sailed back..."  

I was awakened in the middle of the night, sweating profusely. As i looked around, everyone was fast asleep. It was the same old nightmare that had haunted me for years. I got down from my cosy bed and tiptoed to the window. A slight cool breeze brushed over my face. Billions of twinkling stars held aloft a picture of peace. Memories came flooding back before my eyes.  

It was a sunny day. My fiancee Dan and i were waiting at a harbour, with our luggage fully-stuffed. Kylie invited all her classmates to her birthday party. We were to sail on her ship to her villa on an island. We were in good mood as we got on board. Kylie, of course was overjoyed. I, as her best friend, too was happy for her. Her father owned a beautiful villa. Although it is rather isolated, Kylie claimed that the place was an ideal dwelling for a short day. It indeed was.  

We were just a short distance away from our destination when the villa slowly came into sight. It was built high up on a hill. The villa stood there, majestic and in solitude, and we were truly amazed by this beautiful sight. I felt a little seasick but still managed to stay in a clear state. After the ship docked, i couldnt stand the dizziness anymore and vomitted violently. Dan gently patted my back. He was always a loving and caring man. Kylie thought so too i knew that she liked him a lot. However, Dan used to assure me that he would only have eyes on me. I was sceptical but still i tried to believe him. He would never deceive me.  

When we reached the villa, we were exhausted and needed to rest. I walked around and observed the beautiful building. It had a majestic living room downstairs. There was a piano placed beside a window overlooking a magnificent flower garden. There was a flight of staircasemade of find wood which shone in the light. The staircase led to a narrow passage way with rooms on both sides. Kylie and i shared the master room. dan had his next to use while the others chose their rooms for themselves.  

That very night Kylie celebrated her birthday with us. Music and dances went on and on. Everyone was waltzing and partying. Dan and i were sitting in a corner muching our food after several dances together. Suddenly Kylie walked over to us and reached her hand out to Dan. She asked, "May i have the pleasure?" Dan was undecided and he blinked at me. I smiled and said, "Have fun." He smiled back at me and said he would be right back.  

Kylie and Dan danced through the night. Kylie was happy and Dan looked joyous and radiant. I grew moody and was green with jealousy as my fiancee was dancing happily with another girl. A strange feeling overwhelmed me. I couldnt watch them dance anymore. I was left all alone at the corner while they were having fun! I stood up and dashed back to my room. I took a small dose of tranquillisers to get myself into dreamland. Not long after that i was fast asleep.  

 The clock strucked one and the pendulum went "tick tock". I opened my sleepy eyes and everything looked blurred. I sat up, rubbed my eyes and tried to figure things out. Kylie was not in the bed. I called out "Kylie?" No answer. I got down and opened the door. "They were still dancing," i thought to myself. "No, they wouldnt be dancing at this unearthly hour," I reasoned to myself. At that moment i heard a giggling sound coming from Dan's room. His door was ajar. My curiousity was aroused and i peeped in. Almost immediately i felt and agonizing pain in my heart. The hauting scent of Kylie's perfume hung in the air. It was Kylie! How could she? How could he? I hated them for their treachery. I stormed into the room and the two stood rooted to the ground, aghast.  

I ran to Dan and started hitting him with all my might. Kylie grabbed my hand and pushed me awat from Dan. I was swished and knocked my head on a loud crash and broke into pieces. Swiftly, i picked up a piece of broken base and whirled around. Kylie, not knowing what to do just stood there stiffly. I thrust forward and plunged the sharp object into her stomach. I stabbed her over and over again. My hands were smeared by her blood. Dan was hurt too when he tried to stop me. I was too strong and nobody could stop me. Hatred and anger filled my mind. Ther i passed cut.  

The police arrived the following day. I was handcuffed and brought away from the island. I stood on the deck, holding tightly to the railing. A devilish look appeared on my face. The island was a plce full of hatred and sins. It gradually faded away.  

The doctors proved that i was mentality deranged and placed me in a mental institution. I had lied to the whole world about my sanity in order to escape the clutches of the law. I couldnt admit it. I would be sentenced to death. If only i knew that Kylie was innocent. If only i knew that she was just discussing with Dan about giving me a surprise for my birthday.  

 I truly regretted that my impulsive actions had brought me into this terrible and pathetic situation. I had lost a friend. I had lost my fiancee. I had lost everything. I would be stranded here forever with the other mental patients. Tears rooled down my cheeks as i sobbed bitterly and wallowed in self pity.

Girly
[ ]skirts
[x]purse
[x]shopping
[x]make up
[x]bracelet
[ ]necklace
[x]pink
[x]shoes
[x]boys
[ ]posh
7 Girly

Boyish
[ ]baggy clothes
[x]black
[ ]swearing
[x]chains
[ ]skateboard
[x]rock
[ ]bikes
[ ]hang out with boys
[x]jacket
[ ]messy
4 Boyish

Nerd
[ ]thick books
[ ]tucked in shirt
[x]homework
[x]computer
[ ]smart^o^ hahaha...
[ ]extra h/w
[ ]thick glasses
[ ]loner
[ ]short trousers for school
[ ]neat hair
2 Nerdy

Emo
[ ]blood
[x]music
[x]bangs covering one eye
[ ]knife
[x]depression
[x]sadness
[x]black
[ ]cuts
[x]loneliness
[x]desperate
7 Emo

Multiply by 10.

Repost this as "i'm _%girly, _%
boyish,
_%nerdy, _% emo

RIGHT NOW....
01. is your hair wet?
--nu

02. is your cellphone right by you?
--yes of course

03. do you miss someone?
--i dun think so.. i miss no one

04.are you wearing a chap stick?
--what is that?? i heard before but
forgotten wht's the meaning..lol

05. are you tired?
--yeah...wanna sleep but can't.. :(

06.are you wearing pyjamas?
--no...it's late afternoon now...

07.are you mad?
--yeap!!!!

08.are you upset?
--yes i am!!

HAVE YOU
01. recently done something you regret?
--no..maybe later i will..

02.ever lied?
--yeah..hahaha

03.ever stick gum under a desk?
--yeap..hehehe

04.ever kicked someone?
--yes..everytime! i mean everyday..hahahaha

05.ever tripped over your own feet?
--erm..yea..

TODAY
01.have you cursed?
--yes..

02. have you gotten mad at someone?
--yes!!

03.is there a person who is on your mind
right now?
--LEEHOM!!!

04.do you have any siblings?
--yeap..my sista..

05.Do you want children?
--yesh they're CUTE

06.do you smile often?
--not now..last time..

07.do you wish on stars?
--sometimes

08. do you untie your shoes every time
you take them off?
--no..too lazy to do that..lol

09.do you like your handwriting?
--it's alright..

10.are your toenails painted?
--nope..but i want to...black! hahahaha

11.are you a friendly person?
--i think so

12.who's bed did you sleep in last night?
--mine of course..duhh!!

13. what color shirt are you wearing?
--PINK

14.what were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
--sitting on sofa waiting for my dinner

15.can't wait until
--tell you later...cant think of that
right now..lol

16.ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
--forgot...yea..maybe???

Im sick, complications once again. Yet after so long, such long moments of peace. Here comes hell all over again. Im falling, unable to fufill my promise and so i fell. I grasped the chain of fate yet ever so tightly but still, instead, the chain itself broke into pieces descending me into oblivion. I cant understand the system this world is standing on, i cant understand how it works, as though its never there? What should i do? Should i go against it; the way of life? Or should i just follow the flow, and rest by forever darkness, a world so dark filled with only solitude, be it sadness due to fear or fear due to death.

My life revolves around the silliest mistakes one could ever make. Im disgusted by my own ways. Wad am i to do? The fires of hell burns ever so violently, as though awaiting my descend. The fall of the Devil's Child. A carnge full of self love, yet trusted something as indisputable such as love and friendship. Maybe i was wrong. Or maybe i was not. Wad am i to do? OH Great one? Oh DARK one!

Heaven Be my Deliberator, hell be mine.

As my soul crawled the borders of cries,
My heart filled with nothing but sorrow,

Through the river of blood, my blood.
I saw thee, regrets.
It wasnt long before i was totally swept by fear,
I remembered, love.

The warmth felt like days in the summer,
The coldness felt like days in the winter.

Then i heard, a voice
it will pass like rain in the mountains,
Clouds in the sky. . .

Surrender your soul to forever darkness,
Rest your soul may be,
Rest thee upon the fires of hell,
and burn eternity.

I closed my eyes, and accpeted my fate.
It was then i lost my crown, my pride.
Darkness took me, ever so swiftly. . . .

And i was gone, in darkness.

LAST PERSON/PEOPLE

1. you were out with?
ah bengs

2. you spoke to?
my daddy

3. you were on the phone with?
no one..

4. you smsed?
my friends

6. you thought was hot?
LEE HOM

7. you bitched with?
you!nah..nope

8. you yelled at?
the dog

9. you wrote a testimonial to?
shujia

10. you took a photo with?
with a monster..

_______________________________________

HAVE YOU EVER

11. told someone he/she was hot?
YES OF COURSE

12. stared at someone for more than 2
minutes without realising?
i think so..

13. bitched about more than 3 people
in a conversation?
never..i guess i will when i'm damn angry..

14. been in love?
yes

15. harshly dumped someone?
yesh

16. wanted to kill someone?
no..

17. been called an emo?
yea..

18. cried because you were angry?
often :P

19. yelled at someone til the person
cried?
yeah..

20. liked someone of the same sex?
im not a lesbian...if like is "friend's
like"

_______________________________________

WOULD YOU CHOSE

21. to spend your birthday with 5 best
friends or 20 good friends?
depends..

22. flowers or chocolates on
valentine's day?
ahh...i want chocolates..im not into
flowers..

23. nutella or peanut butter on toast?
peanut butter on toast..

24. drums or guitar?
drums i think

25. a sexy sports car or a huge mpv?
what's a mpv?

26. to break someone's heart or to be
heartbroken?
break someone's heart..heeheehee

27. be alone or accompanied by others?
it depends
_______________________________________

DO YOU

28. believe in true love?
maybe

29. own an ipod?
yesh

30. have a diary?
yes an abandoned one

31. have more than 500 friends in your
friends' list?
nope..used to but i deleted about 200 of
them

32. wish you were someone else?
yeah...er..sometimes

______________________________________

WHAT IS

33. your most valued possesion(s)?
muahahaaha..money...$$$

34. the object that is closest to you
now?
my mic.. its infront of my mouth and is about to kiss me!

35. the last thing you do before going
to bed?
brush my teeth of course..

36. the first thing you think about in
the morning?
get out from my bed.....

37. your favourite vanity posession?
ah...none for this...i'd like to own an
eye liner..LOL
_______________________________________

LAST THING

38. you bought during a shopping spree?
clothes

39. you ate?
mango

40. you bought for someone else?
bought nothing...

41. someone got you?
no..

42. that someone said which made you
laugh?
my friends

I have learned something new today, that is, XIN RU DAO GE. It's a simplified Chinese. It means hurted like being cut by a knife in the heart. It is best to describe my feelings now.

XIN RU DAO GE £½ ÐÄÈ絶¸î

1. First Name: Yizen

2. Last Name: Teo

4. Place of Birth: Planet earth (;

5.male/female:female

6.Age: 14

7. Bus/Car: Car.

8. School: smk chws

9. Occupation: an angel ^^

10.Initials: -Z-

11. Screen Name: -ZeN-

YOUR APPEARANCE

12. Hair Color: Brown

13. Hair Length: currently short

14. Eye color: brown.

15. Best Feature: uh. dunno.

16. Height: 5 feet?

17. Braces: nope.

18. Glasses: nope.

19. Shoe size: 5

20. Diploma: no =)

22. First best friend: i dont have a best friend i have many of them

23. First Award: kindergarten.

24. First Sport You Joined: pre-school
volley ball team =D

25. First thing you did today: wake
up, brush teeth,shower.

26. First Real vacation: England

27. First thing you said
today: urggh.. 5 more minutes... zzz

28. First Crush: this really hot boy
in standard 6 ^^

FAVORITES

29. Movies: loads(;

30. TV Shows: the simpsons <3,
spongebob <33, america's next top
model ^^

31. Color(s): black white pink

32. Rapper: eminem and lee hom

33. Place to get groceries: Cold
storage.

34. Food: baskin robbins xD

35. Season: summer && winter <33

36. Candy: willy wonka (;

37. Sport: badminton

38. Restaurant: Loads

41. School Subject:
english!! recess time!!

42. Animal: Dog.

43. Book: pop princess.all-american
girl (meg cabot).

44. Magazine: alot.

45. Doing before you started this
survey: eating

46. Feeling: bored

47. Wearing: black spaghetti
strap.blue shorts.

48. Crying about: stress

49. Eating: the air. xD

50. drinking: skyjuice. get it?

51. Typing: fast ^^

53. Listening: You Guys Have to Be Happy (in chinese: ni men yao kuai le)

54. Thinking about: Tomorrow

55. Wanting: everything =3.

56. Watching: none.

57. Where do you see yourself in
5yrs: dunno.

58. Kids: a princess and a prince

59. Want to be Married: maybe

60.Career in Mind: dunno xD

OPPOSITE SEX

63. Hair color: brown/black =)

64. Hair length: short :]

65. Eye color: brown.black

 66. Measurements: tall!

67. Cute or sexy: err...cute...

68. Lips or Eyes: o_o

69. Hugs or Kisses: both XD

70. Short or Tall: tall d:

71. Easygoing or serious:
easygoing.

72. Romantic or Spontaneos: both

73. Good or Bad: good! although he
claims hes a BAD BOY. -.-""

74. Sensitive or spontaneous: both?

75. Hook-up or
Relationship: ...Relantionship


HAVE YOU EVER

78. Kissed a Stranger: wtf no.

79. Had surgery: no

80. Gone commando: Commando? wats that

81. Ran Away From Home:nope.

82. Broken a bone: nope

83. Got an X-ray: yesh

84. Been on a cruise: yeap

86. Dumped someone: yes..

87. Cried When Someone Died: yeap.. my beloved great great grandma

88. Cried At School: always

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

89.God: yesh

90. Miracles: maybe

91. Love at First Sight: depends

92. Ghosts: if im feeling scared

94. Soul Mates: yeah..

95. Heaven: guess so

96. Hell: guess so

97. Answered prayers: sometimes

98. kiss on the first date?: nah..

99. Horoscopes: a bit

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

100. Is there someone you wish you
had?
yesh..

Repost this with your own answers
as "100
Things About Me."

Can you feel my world? You're always pretending that im somewhere else. Never paid any attention to my existence, makes me wonder, am i even there? Can you feel it? the coldness, the warmth, the joy the pain, the things that i've felt? Wad am i to do without u? But you seemed ever so fine without me. yet happy. I spent my days missing the very thing i valued most, n yet i cant make up my mindon wad it was? Was it you? or somthing else?

Whos there? Knock knock? Is anybody there? Please hear me. . . i need you. So much, agony. Sadness in solitude. Although im already used to it, but, its painful. Wad am i to do? Wad am i to do? im lost, in the woods of broken dreams. My mind swap across borders of cries while my body laid still in soils of sadness. Legs held by forever darkness. So heavy. . . so heavy.

Today is a holiday, but i have to go to school! It's so unfair... Weekend have to study also >.<

But, things went same as what i expected. There's just 8 over 40 of my classmates came. Everyone's enjoying sleeping at home. Prefect board were having their camp that time. Cool, and there was no prefect and dicipline teacher in our scul. So i took my precious i-pod and handphone there ^^

Many people took benda** harams** there to. Some even brought their camera to take photos. It was just sooo cool when there was no prefect. But they've came back this afternoon. Tomorrow they'll be going to control the school again. SWT!

for ur information, 'benda haram' means banned things.

Life's not fair, and it's never fair.

Type ur reactions when somebody say
these phrases to u...

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?!
- yah hor why ar?

IJUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU
- N i just realised that i dun

LEAVE HIM//HER ALREADY. YOU'LL BE MUCH
MORE HAPPY WITH
ME - hahahaahahahaa, nope.

COME ON.SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO
- ya meh?? DUn FLIRT LA

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO
- JIAK SAI

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE
SOMEONE LIKE YOU
- Cool, im JESUS CHRIST! (jk)

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
- ahh GOD NOEs

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK
CONCERT.WANNA COME WITH ME?
- No i dun go to parks, i go shoppin
malls! :)

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE
IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
- Awww.. u MORON! im not CACAT!

I THINK IM FALLING FOR YOU
- Dun fall, dun kill urself.

CANT SMILE WITHOUT YOU
- hmm then dun smile lah , stupid

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST
ARENT HIM//HER
- ER? tats because im BI ?

NOTHING!
- ?

WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
- WHY? WAnan stalk me huh? Jiak SAI LAH

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE?
- wad dance>?

MAY I ESCORT YOU
- im not HANDICAP for CHRIST's SAKE!

DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM//HER TIL NOW
- Hmm, i dun love u if tats wad ur askin!

YOU ARE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I
WANTED
- awwww.. tats so sweet, but
surely ur everthing doesnt include my
cake in the toilet right? cause tat
would be like so DISGUSTIN! EWWW!

WHEN WILL I GET UR SWEET EYES?
- WTF!! MY EYES ARE SWEET>? U TASTE THEM
B4? OH GOD!!!IM FUCHING BLIND!!!!

 *just in case u dont understand, 'jiak sai' is kinda rude word, it means eat shit.*

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it
to be?
-alvin ^^

2. When shopping at the grocery store,
do you return your cart?
-sometimes..haha..

3. In a social setting, are you more
of a talker or a listener?
-being a listener the most...well..it
gotta depend..

4. Do you take compliments well?
- kinda...

5. Do you play Sudoku?
- no..it's not interesting either..

6. If abandoned alone in the
wilderness, would you survive?
-maybe...yeah!..hahaha...i would like to try
that..

7 . Do you like to ride horses?
- yes its exciting lol

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
-yeah..

9. What was your favorite game as a
kid?
- monopoly,scrabbers..duhh..lots!

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you,
what would you do?
- erhem.. juz if that's lee hom then i'll be the wildest eva

12. Could you date someone with
different religious beliefs than you?
-yeah!why not?

13. Do you like to pursue or be
pursued?
-to be...muaha!!

15. Do any songs make you cry?
-yeap! 'finally' by lee hom

16. Are you continuing your education?
-of course yes..

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
-hopefully i know...hehehe

18. If your house was on fire, what
would be the first thing you would
grab?
- my leehom's collections!

19. How often do u read books?
-yes i love it

20. Do u think more about the past,
present or future?
-future of course!!im a huge dreamer..!
haha!:D

21. What is ur favorite children's
book?
- em.. cannot remember

22. What color are ur eyes?
- dark brown..

23. How tall are u?
- 152 cm

24. Where is ur dream house located?
-somewhere in usa n canada!!!!!!!!!!!!
awwwww!!X]

27. Have u ever taken pictures in a
photo booth?
- yea..not really like it..

30. Where was the furthest place u
traveled?
-uk london

32. Do u like mustard?
- NO!!!!

33. Do u prefer to sleep or eat?
- sleep

34. Do u look like ur mom or dad?
- both..

35. How long does it take u in d
shower?
-usually more than 30 minutes

36. Can u do a split?
- nope.

39. What did u do for New Year's?
- had fun..go countdown..or stay at
home..

40. Do u think The Grudge was scary?
- i dont really fancy horror
movies..eeewww...

41. Do u own a camera phone?
- yea...

42. Was ur mom a cheerleader?
- lol.. no

43. What's the last letter of ur
middle name?
-i dont hav a middle name.. i suppose.. N?

44. How many hours of sleep do u get
a night?
-average 3 hours

45. Do u like care bears?
- no way!!

46. What do u buy at the movies?
- movie tickets?popcorns n drinks?

47. Do u know how to play poker?
- yes of course..

48. Do you wear ur seatbelt?
- yeah..for my safety's sake

49. How many meals do u eat a day?
- 2 seldom eat dinna

50. Is ur tongue pierced?
- nu..

51. Do u always read bulletins?
- sometimes

52. Do u like funny or serious
people better?
- both.

53. Ever been to L.A.?
-yesh

54. Did u eat a cookie today?
- nope.

55. Do u steal or pay for ur music
downloads?
- come on.download is the best to
describe steal.:D

56. Do u need a boyfriend/girlfriend
to be happy?
-no...what for??lol!!dont really need
that to be happy..

57. Are u easy to get along with ?
-yes i think

58. What is ur favorite time of day?
-ooo....i dont know..maybe spend the
whole day in my bed with the air-cond
turned on...lol!!

Valice, the city of lost memories. Where all hearts are kept pure; the second Eden.

Prologue : The Promised land . . .


Long ago, the world was at peace. Races lived amongst each other with much harmony. This 'world' was once called the living Eden, so pure and innocent. As time passes, the origins of purity began to fade; hence began the Sin era. Filled with greed, the different races fought; some fought for honor, others merely fought only to survive.

Countless sacrifices has been made, death circled around the lands. It was now a land of grief. As the races fought, death weighed even heavier.
Cries of suffering reverberated throughout the lands; a man 'Lucifer' saw too much sadness and could not see the meaning of existence vowed to end the world of its sufferings.

Lucifer, the great warrior; sliced his throat with his sword and his blood flooded the lands, erecting the Stream of Life. Large waves of spiritual energy covered the lands, destroying everything.

Upon witnessing the Stream of Life, thee remembered. The world they had been living in the past, a land so pure. The 'Promised' Land. Heroes rose in hopes of protecting the things the have come to love and the ones they loved. The bonds of love proved more overwhelming than death, "To put the ones you love above all things including yourself..." The effects of the Stream of Life was reversed.

Peace filled the lands once more, but still only a fraction of the world remains . . .

The reason behind my desperate hyper-activeness is quite unknown . The reason behind my foolish-ness or such childish acts. The reason behind the un-alertive behaviour and the care-free chracter. Its killing me. Influences from every where. No matter how many times i tell myself, how many times i've tried. I just cant get pass the three major things,

1. FEAR,
2. SOFT-HEARTEDNESS and
3. Laziness. . .

When issit gonna be? the time when the Real me takes over; im sick. Real sick. I wan to be that cold sophisticated demon again. Someone that brings fear not have them. For so long, only thiughts of courage haunt my mind. No actions were taken. Im lost. Am i on the right track? So happened after 3 months im back to square one asking myself the same exact question. Why am i such a failure? Im giving up drawing! OR should I? My time is almost over i fear, 'reincarnation' is at hand. Rise carnage Rise! Be once more the deliberator of fear and death, express the reason behind life and suffrings. Be God of this Forsaken WorlD. A world that has been losing its purpose and rights to existence as every single second passes by. . .

Im sick and tired of this world, when woud it be the time when i can create a new world!? full of purpose and reason to exist. Unlike now the corruption we see in our evervyday lives, the violence taking place, even in such unexpected places; school, etc. Why? Humans are indespicable things. They are such selfish creatures that eventually sacrificed the one very sacred thing ' friendship' . Is there even such a thing called 'friendship' ? If there is why do humans neglect or harm eachother? For are we not family? Are we not of the same species?

"Demons rise from the sea to take upon man and their brothers on their lands, the rise of darkness corrupted man henceforth, losing their rights to existence and immortality. "

Let me feel you again, the genius of geniuses. . . . .Carnage, the demon.

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Emotions are a dangerous thing. They're like little children, innocent and naive. And when we're in love for the first time, they run wild like children in the park on a Sunday afternoon, full of energy and vigor, boundless and unrestrained.

But if a little girl was to fall, a bad fall, no one sees this poor girl. She looks up at the other children and hears their laughter. She cries as all little girls do but she stops after awhile, not wanting to dampen the other children's' happiness. So she sits and waits, hoping for someone to help her up.

A boy came and offered his hand; she began to smile as the sadness of a child never lasts long. She takes his hand and they take a few tentative steps, but as she began to put her weight on him the boy let go and she crumpled onto the grass again. The boy laughed, for he was only a bully.

The little girl was sad, but somewhere inside her she knew it was too good to be true and shrugged it off. She rested for awhile, then limped painfully towards a tree and sat in the shade. She's tired now and her leg hurts too much, she doesn't want to run around in the park anymore.

The day went on and although she was still hurting, she no longer cried, just rested and waited for the pain in her leg to subside. Indeed after awhile she feels much better. She thinks she's completely recovered. She stands up but as she tried to take a few steps on her own she crumpled like a rag doll. The little girl realizes her leg is broken. So she sits under the tree and watches the other children play. She saw some of them trip and fall and remembers her own pain. She thinks to herself, "how dangerous it is to run around the park without control or restrain..." She decides to build a wall around herself. She never wants to get hurt again.

She sits in her brick wall alone with her thoughts. She wonders when she'll dare to run again, from time to time she would sit on the wall and swing her legs, trying to enjoy herself and contemplating whether she had the courage to run again. Some children came along to encourage her but each time she came close to jumping off the wall back into the playground, the memory of her fall would return and she would retreat to the inner sanctity of her tiny fortress.

So there she hid, till one day she heard some scraping noises, as if someone else was building a wall. She peered over her wall and true enough there was a little boy, building his own wall, sadness in his eyes. She wondered if he had fallen just like her, while he was running careless and free. She watches the boy complete the wall and when he did so, he peered curiously at her before disappearing behind his own wall. The little girl wondered what the boy was thinking and one day the boy called out to her from behind his wall and she replies from behind her wall.

They begin to talk, in small muffled voices at first, and then clearer, as each of them removed a brick from their respective walls. Soon they became friends, and his voice was a comfort to her. But each time she removed a new brick, the light which flooded her hiding place frightened her and she was tempted to replace it. But also, with each new brick she removed, the sounds of the other children's laughter enticed her and she realized she wanted to run like before. But not alone lest she fall again. She wondered if the boy felt the same and thought about what she would do if the boy asked her to run with him. Again.

DAORAE ; Korean BBQ! It was a memorable night. The lightings, atmosphere; everything was perfect! Its something i've not tried before. . . a birthday dinner at DAORAE! The BBQ was great! The food, kimch (vegetables) Ahhh all so so so GREAT! Not to mention that it was the first ever time i went out with friends to eat in such an EXP restuarant. WooTs~ Almost thought we were already adults for a moment there. UN-believeable.

Hmm, its been so crazy lately. Cant possibly schedule myself down. Dont even know what im doing, and what i wanna do. So, worried that somehow i might afterall turn out to be useless by the end of the day.

Although, time passes ridiculously recently. All well spent i would say. Stupidly but happily i might add. Nothing further can add up to the amount of entertainment singing brings to my world. Really really enjoyed myself recently. Especially the frequent "ponteng" in sch. The skipping of classes. such fun. WTF! ya i know its wrong to skip classes. but the teachers don't really teach anyway. So not really a big issue.

Most importantly, things are finally starting to settle down. The first 2 months was sort of like a probationary period. Going around mixing with different groups of ppl. And now, the differences in characteristics are finally starting to materialize... Whom are you compatible to, whom u may wish to mix with n be able to blend in with. Im really glad that the ones i felt comfortable with n have no problems blending in with too have no probs in doing the same with me. Though, still no body is a 100% perfect. Cant really expect TOO much.

Think about it, nothing is permanent. Someday, somehow, our friendship we work so hard to forge n build will end in almost just anything. But until that day comes, i will b enjoying every single fraction of a sec i spent with them(friends). Cause i know, when that day really comes, i will not be regretting anything or even about having to meet them in the first place. At least, i will be satisfied.

Haiz, speaking of which it reminds me. I must get a grip of myself. Im getting out of control! I rarely touch my books anymore. Im always like this, talk no action. Even so, there is any action at all, it will only be nothing but a 3 min warning. haiz. im just so lazy. Whos gonna kick me n shake me to my senses? I wana be successful!!! I really wana be! But i know theres no point in just saying even. I have to prove it! YEs i will. I must rethink my strategies. Re-plan everything. It was a close call, i almost went overboard. Astray... what a dangerous path im taking. But thank god i realised it soon enough.

I still have time to set things right i hope. yeah i guess. . .

It had been quite a while since i've last touched the meaning or relived the feelings of happiness. It had never quite happened to me before. I this while i thought i was a lone-ranger, destined to walk a path of solitude. But i was wrong. Hence, i saw the light tat saved me from loneliness. It was a catastrophic experience, yet still powerful enought to make me cry.

It was a wonderful evening i had with a bunch of ppl that after so long; even i couldn't belive it, could finally call 'friends'. Weird eh? But it was nice, really nice. We ate, drank and did almost everything together. IT was reall fun. Just wish that such a feeling will not seek to disrupt itself. At least strong enough to mantain its current momentum.

Maybe after that warming evening. Haha, our friendship is getting deeper and stronger by the minute. But all this wont end i hope. I really hope. Though i don't really remember how did we ever get this thing going. How it even started... But why care? haha, let us just enjoy this every moement, together. .

Owch my pc is having a BIG BIG problem eh... So i decided to reformat it from last week but until now there was still no one coming to repair for me! Owh what the fish... XP

Maybe the computer repairman will come over tomorrow, so i guess it will take few days time to repair this. This is not the sad one, the sad one is i cant post for few days! >.<

Oh how i wish have a brand new computer or laptop beside me >.<

Be grateful to those who have hurt or harmed you,

for they have reinforced your determination.

Be grateful to those who have deceived you,

for they have deepened your insight.

Be grateful to those who have hit you,

for they have reduced your karmic obstacles.

Be grateful to those who have abandoned you,

for they have taught you to be independent.

Be grateful to those who have made you stumble,

for they have strengthened your ability.

Be grateful to those who have denounced you,

for they have increased your wisdom and concentration.

1-touch their waist
2-talk to them
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss them slowly


are you remembering this?


6-hug her
7-hold her
8-laugh with her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when you're
with your
friends


keep reading


11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more,
deny it.
fight
back
15-when her friends say i love her
more than you,
deny it. fight back and hug her tight
so she cant
get to
her friends. it makes her feel loved


Are you thinking about someone?


16-always hug her and say i love you
when you
see
her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE
WAIST
19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!


..20 u need to show her you mean it too


21-kiss her on the lips
22-DONT ask her to buy you stuff. you
buy HER
stuff
23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24-make her feel loved
25-buy her stuff. small things can
still help


we might deny it but we actually like
and kinda
want
you to get us things


26-DON'T LIE TO HER.
27-DON'T CHEAT ON HER.
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt message or call her in the
morning and tell
her
have a good day at school/work, and
how much
you
miss
her
30-be there for her when ever she
needs you, &
even
when she doesn't need you, just be
there so she'll
know that she can always count on you


are you still reading this u better be
its important


31. Hold her close when she's cold and
she can
hold
you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close
and kiss
her.
33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose;
(it will give her
the
hint that you want to kiss them).
34. While in the movie, put your arm
around her
and
then she will automatically put her
head on your
shoulder, then lean in and tilt her
chin up and kiss
her
lightly.
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even
jokingly or act
like
you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her


remember this next time you are with
her


36. When people diss her, stand up for
her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell
her
you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put
her
head on your chest so she can listen to
the steady beat of your heart, Link
your
fingers together while you whisper to
her as she rests her eyes and listens
to
you.
39. When walking next to each other
grab
her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your
arms as long as possible
41. Call her at night to wish her
sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and
wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night
44. Dedicate a song to her.
45. Always Remind her how much you
love her.


youll never know when she needs just a
lil more
love



Guys Repost: "i would do this for her"
Girls Repost: "45 things a girl would
want from their boyfriend..

[ ] Gotten a referral.
[x] Gotten detention.
[ ] Gotten your cellphone taken away.
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[x] Chewed gum during class.

TOTAL: 2

[x] Gotten late to a class more than 10
times.
[ ] Didn't do homework over 5 times.
[ ] Returned at least 5 projects in
late.
[x] Missed school cause you felt like
it.
[x] Skipped class at least 3 times.

TOTAL: 3

[ ] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you
out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher. (hardly, lolz!)

TOTAL: 4

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm.
[x] Went on myspace; friendster;
xanga; etc on the computer in the
library
[x] Took pictures during school
hours.
[x] Called someone during school
hours.
[x] Listened to an ipod/cd player/mp3
during class.

TOTAL: 4

[x] threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the classroom
without permission.
[ ] Broke the dress code.
[ ] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

TOTAL: 3

[ ] Gotten a call home
[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip
cause you behaved bad
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school
[ ] gotten a referral and ripped it up
[x] used passes from other days/ Or
made fake pass
[x] said a cuss word during class
loud enough so the teacher could
hear

TOTAL: 3

[x] sleeping in class
[ ] whacked teacher
[ ] threaten teacher
[x]felt hungry during class and went to
eat
[x] treat the teacher as invisible

TOTAL: 3

add up your score and times it by 4.
repost as __% Hated by Teachers

> If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months
and 6 days you would have produced
enough sound energy to heat one cup of
coffee.
(Hardly seems worth it.)

> If you farted consistently for 6 years
and 9 months, enough gas is produced to
create the energy of an atomic bomb.
(Now that's more like it!)

> The human heart creates enough
pressure when it pumps out to the body
to squirt blood 30 feet.
(O.M.G.!)

> A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.
(In my next life, I want to be a pig.)

> A cockroach will live nine days
without its head before it starves to
death. (Creepy.)
(I'm still not over the pig.)

> Banging your head against a wall uses
150 calories a hour
(Don't try this at home, maybe at work)

> The male praying mantis cannot
copulate while its head is attached to
its body. The female initiates sex by
ripping the male's head off.
(Honey, I'm home. What the...?!)

> The flea can jump 350 times its body
length. It's like a human jumping the
length of a football field.
(30 minutes..lucky pig! Can you imagine?)


> The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.
(What could be so tasty on the bottom of
a pond?)


> Some lions mate over 50 times a day.
(I still want to be a pig in my next
life...quality over quantity)


> Butterflies taste with their feet.
(Something I always wanted to know.)

> The strongest muscle in the body is
the tongue.
(Hmmmmmm......)

> Right-handed people live, on average,
nine years longer than left-handed people.
(If you're ambidextrous, do you split
the difference?)

> Elephants are the only animals that
cannot jump.
(Haha..Okay, so that would be a good thing)


> A cat's urine glows under a black light.
(I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)

> An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
( I know some people like that.)

> Starfish have no brains
(I know some people like that too.)

> Polar bears are left-handed.
(If they switch, they'll live a lot longer)

> Humans and dolphins are the only
species that have sex for pleasure.
(What about that pig??)


Now that you've smiled at least once,
it's your turn to spread these crazy
facts and send this to someone you want
to bring a smile to, maybe even a chuckle.
In other words, send it to everyone !
(and God love that pig!).