The reason behind my desperate hyper-activeness is quite unknown . The reason behind my foolish-ness or such childish acts. The reason behind the un-alertive behaviour and the care-free chracter. Its killing me. Influences from every where. No matter how many times i tell myself, how many times i've tried. I just cant get pass the three major things,

1. FEAR,
2. SOFT-HEARTEDNESS and
3. Laziness. . .

When issit gonna be? the time when the Real me takes over; im sick. Real sick. I wan to be that cold sophisticated demon again. Someone that brings fear not have them. For so long, only thiughts of courage haunt my mind. No actions were taken. Im lost. Am i on the right track? So happened after 3 months im back to square one asking myself the same exact question. Why am i such a failure? Im giving up drawing! OR should I? My time is almost over i fear, 'reincarnation' is at hand. Rise carnage Rise! Be once more the deliberator of fear and death, express the reason behind life and suffrings. Be God of this Forsaken WorlD. A world that has been losing its purpose and rights to existence as every single second passes by. . .

Im sick and tired of this world, when woud it be the time when i can create a new world!? full of purpose and reason to exist. Unlike now the corruption we see in our evervyday lives, the violence taking place, even in such unexpected places; school, etc. Why? Humans are indespicable things. They are such selfish creatures that eventually sacrificed the one very sacred thing ' friendship' . Is there even such a thing called 'friendship' ? If there is why do humans neglect or harm eachother? For are we not family? Are we not of the same species?

"Demons rise from the sea to take upon man and their brothers on their lands, the rise of darkness corrupted man henceforth, losing their rights to existence and immortality. "

Let me feel you again, the genius of geniuses. . . . .Carnage, the demon.