Hmm, its been so crazy lately. Cant possibly schedule myself down. Dont even know what im doing, and what i wanna do. So, worried that somehow i might afterall turn out to be useless by the end of the day.

Although, time passes ridiculously recently. All well spent i would say. Stupidly but happily i might add. Nothing further can add up to the amount of entertainment singing brings to my world. Really really enjoyed myself recently. Especially the frequent "ponteng" in sch. The skipping of classes. such fun. WTF! ya i know its wrong to skip classes. but the teachers don't really teach anyway. So not really a big issue.

Most importantly, things are finally starting to settle down. The first 2 months was sort of like a probationary period. Going around mixing with different groups of ppl. And now, the differences in characteristics are finally starting to materialize... Whom are you compatible to, whom u may wish to mix with n be able to blend in with. Im really glad that the ones i felt comfortable with n have no problems blending in with too have no probs in doing the same with me. Though, still no body is a 100% perfect. Cant really expect TOO much.

Think about it, nothing is permanent. Someday, somehow, our friendship we work so hard to forge n build will end in almost just anything. But until that day comes, i will b enjoying every single fraction of a sec i spent with them(friends). Cause i know, when that day really comes, i will not be regretting anything or even about having to meet them in the first place. At least, i will be satisfied.

Haiz, speaking of which it reminds me. I must get a grip of myself. Im getting out of control! I rarely touch my books anymore. Im always like this, talk no action. Even so, there is any action at all, it will only be nothing but a 3 min warning. haiz. im just so lazy. Whos gonna kick me n shake me to my senses? I wana be successful!!! I really wana be! But i know theres no point in just saying even. I have to prove it! YEs i will. I must rethink my strategies. Re-plan everything. It was a close call, i almost went overboard. Astray... what a dangerous path im taking. But thank god i realised it soon enough.

I still have time to set things right i hope. yeah i guess. . .