ITs sUnday Alredi, and after tat would be the first day of sch after the long over the week holiday. And guess wad? Its MONDAY BLUES all over again. Wad a great hope to rely on. New year had been fun, unlike any other. Lots of old frens kept in contact, most importantly the trusted ones.

But its kinda sad, knowing that such good times are about to end.Afterall, i was finally able to pull our friendship only so much closer that after he left, there was so much emptiness. Though like wad he said, maybe its because we dont seee each other everyday thats why. But i think theres more to it, but it puzzles me so much that why am i being so moody. Why i care so much bout him>? Issit something more than friendship? haiz, how many times have i asked myself such a question, beats me, i've lost count but i know its definitely not the first and will not be the last.

OUr very first meeting somehow started out funny. we got to know through another fren. IT was really cool. Thinking back though, brings alot of funny memories. Though sometimes awkward. Haiz.. really tired you, having such a feeling. Why ? why cant i just be hollow. Be a human who cant feel or have no feelings at all? Wouldnt that be great? A man without his heart, such blessings should've been brought. IT really really is tiring, painful.

Hmm, why am i feeling so sad n moody to day? Issit one of the infamous moodswings again? NOPE> dun feel like just any typical moodswings i've had before. ITs different. Its just empty u know.Like something important is missing, or like u've lost somthing important. Your dissappointed n sad. Dont know what to do. YOur GRUMPY!? hmm, feels like knocking on heaven's door unprepared.

Im lost, really lost. But i know, im really really really happy to have met such a friend. Whats beyond happiness may be nothing but lust.So hard ... its just so hard. Don't know what to do. . .