I've neglected my blog for 2000 years!
Sorry >.<

K K updates so far...
Workload is killing me up to the extent that I actually had a nervous breakdown at 1 in the morning a couple of weeks ago.
Armenian guy DID get into my school! *joy!*
Finally went clubbing in London...even met someone there =D
Went out with that someone today...can't tell who...just yet lol
Brian came n visit yesterday and he ate the food that I cooked which convinced him to marry me in the future... Yes...that would be the day... And betty's bread n butter pudding...oh my god...i think im gonna marry HER lmao
RELATIVITY TEST ON TUESDAY!!
im properly screwed

Its been quite some time since i last updated my blog. Nuthing changed much except for some immature happenings. I wonder whos really at fault? The one who got dumped and be accused or the one who dumps n accuse? Life is just not fair ya know? When things go wrong, ppl just start to say bad things bout u. Even though it wasnt true, i kept with u in silence. Afterall it was my burden to bear, and mine alone. Although i did complain to my frens bout did, but i rememebred SPECIFICALLY that i asked the not to interfere, afterall, they are all thrid parties. But on the Accuser's hand, shes asking ppl to interfere eventhough its NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS. Im mean that alone is fine if ur too much a coward to face ur own problems. BUt making uo stories? Taking back things u gave saying that they owed. This is RIDICULOUS. Some how her third party or should i say "LAWYER" threatened to beat me up without even coming to me and asking me "Hey wad really happened?" And he daresay i never treat them as a fren. puff l0ook whus toking man. .. .

Things are getting hot, im just so heartbroken that someone close to u would actually do such a thing. . . I should be the one crying. Besides. i know what i've said, it wasnt nasty or anything bad. And they dare accused me of tat. COMEON SMS"S all got records right? Whu started it i wonder, had it not be SUM BUSYBODY whu added a few EXTRA WORDS in the sms, would it all end up like this? JESUS CHRIST GIMME A BREAK!

Who0o hoo! Just came back from a funfilled church camp!~ Met alot of friends and ppl. From young to old, you name it. Truly, i dare say. This camp change my life alot, not just mine but many others too; its really surprising in what a little faith and belief can do. . . . It was weird at first, but everything went cool after the ice-breaker; where people meets people. Damn awkward but it was fun. Things went on, and we were splitted into groups. I was made a leader of my group and our color was PINK! YAY PINKY.

Name, the PINK PANTHER. Bam bam bam bam bam bam BAM! Haha. Was really fun, not mention taT although there were times when my group almost went into arguement; we pulled it off by sitting together and coming up with a SOLUTION! YAY amen* to tat!Hmm we were given this song to dance with and its a competition. AMAZINGLY! we WON! HOORAY FOR PINK PANTHER!

That few weeks PASSED like rain in the mountains, clouds in the sky, ever so hasty. It was a day of many partings, emotional i might say. Well im looking forward to more camps in the future, who knows whu i might meet the second time around!

Guys, im taking my exam on next Monday, so i wont be able to update my blog anymore.  I wanna be more hardworking and get great results for my new cellphone as a present.  And something i need to tell you guys, this is hiliriously freaking me out! I've met many celebrities this year, surprisingly. The first celebrity is Zhong Xiao Yu, a Malaysian artist and the second one is a Hong Kong TVB actor.The third one goes to Lee Hom the Taiwan celebrity and fourth is JJ Lin, a Singapore singer. And last month i've met Simple Plan!!! And today, i've met TWO more actors. I wonder why? LOL

1. Name one person who made you smile
today?
>no one. i didn't smile today either..

2. What were you doing at 8:00 this
morning?
> sleeping XD

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
> eating

4. What is something that happened to
you in 1994?
> oh im juz 2 years old that time

5. What is the last thing you said
aloud?
> get lost

6. How many different things did you
drink today?
> 2

7. What color is your hairbrush?
> brick red

8. What was the last thing you bought?
> junk foods

9. What was the last gift you received
for your birthday?
> a very beautiful necklace ^^

10. What color is your front door?
> pink

11. Where do you keep your change?
> pocket.

12. What was the weather like today?
> rainy @.@

13. What is the best ice cream flavor?
> vanilla

14. What is something you are excited
about?
>going to AX camp!

15. When was the last rainbow you saw?
>rainbow?? i hardly see that nowadays

16. Do you have a sister?
>yes, in australia =(  [and im very lonely now]

17. Are you very random?
> yeah.hahaha

18. Do you want to cut your hair?
> yeah.. hate this hairstyle

19. Are you over the age of 25?
> nope

20. Do you talk alot?
> depends.mostly no.

21. Do you watch The O.C.?
> yeap

22. Does your screen name have an "x"
in it?
> nope.

23. Do you know anyone named Steven?
> yesh, but he moved to KL last year >.<

24. Do you make up your own words?
> yeah

25. Are you ticklish?
> hoho.

26. Are you typically a jealous
person?
>indeed yes.

29. Who's the 1st person on your
received calls list?
>alvin =)

30. What did the last text message you
received say?
>'are you going to dorrin's party, seriously?'

31. Do you chew on your straws?
> used to.

32. Do you have curly hair?
> i have a straight one

33. What is the next concert you're
going to?
>lee hom's

34. Who is the crappiest person in ur
life?
> stupid may :P

35. How many times have you swore
today?
> nah i dont do that

36. What is something you say a lot?
> damn u :P

37. What is the last thing you ate?
> chips

38. Have you seen the movie "Donnie
Darko"?
> nope...

39.Do you have work tomorrow?
> no im juz a student

40. Is marriage in your future?
> yes and i wish i can marry someone loves me lot like i love lee hom ^^

41. Last time you said "I love you."?
> months ago..

42. What should you be doing right
now?
>studying XD

43. Do you have a nickname?
> yeah...=.=

44. Do you skateboard?
> nop its too dangerous for me =)

45. What do you do more than anything
else?
> singing lee hom's wei yi (The one & only)

46. What is the best movie you've seen
in the past two weeks?
> forgot

47. When was the last time you did the
dishes, be honest...?
>this morning, the first time!!! 

48. Are you currently depressed?
yeah.

49. Did you cry today?
> heehee.. yes

50. Which places you are keen to go?
> whoa.many.. USA!!!CANADA!! and other
western countries as well..lol

"She stood on the deck. Her hands were holding tightly to the railing. There was somehow a devilish look on her angelic face. Her lopsided smile added to the description. She couldnt keep her eyes off the beautiful island which had now a place full of hatred. The island gradually faded away as the ship sailed back..."  

I was awakened in the middle of the night, sweating profusely. As i looked around, everyone was fast asleep. It was the same old nightmare that had haunted me for years. I got down from my cosy bed and tiptoed to the window. A slight cool breeze brushed over my face. Billions of twinkling stars held aloft a picture of peace. Memories came flooding back before my eyes.  

It was a sunny day. My fiancee Dan and i were waiting at a harbour, with our luggage fully-stuffed. Kylie invited all her classmates to her birthday party. We were to sail on her ship to her villa on an island. We were in good mood as we got on board. Kylie, of course was overjoyed. I, as her best friend, too was happy for her. Her father owned a beautiful villa. Although it is rather isolated, Kylie claimed that the place was an ideal dwelling for a short day. It indeed was.  

We were just a short distance away from our destination when the villa slowly came into sight. It was built high up on a hill. The villa stood there, majestic and in solitude, and we were truly amazed by this beautiful sight. I felt a little seasick but still managed to stay in a clear state. After the ship docked, i couldnt stand the dizziness anymore and vomitted violently. Dan gently patted my back. He was always a loving and caring man. Kylie thought so too i knew that she liked him a lot. However, Dan used to assure me that he would only have eyes on me. I was sceptical but still i tried to believe him. He would never deceive me.  

When we reached the villa, we were exhausted and needed to rest. I walked around and observed the beautiful building. It had a majestic living room downstairs. There was a piano placed beside a window overlooking a magnificent flower garden. There was a flight of staircasemade of find wood which shone in the light. The staircase led to a narrow passage way with rooms on both sides. Kylie and i shared the master room. dan had his next to use while the others chose their rooms for themselves.  

That very night Kylie celebrated her birthday with us. Music and dances went on and on. Everyone was waltzing and partying. Dan and i were sitting in a corner muching our food after several dances together. Suddenly Kylie walked over to us and reached her hand out to Dan. She asked, "May i have the pleasure?" Dan was undecided and he blinked at me. I smiled and said, "Have fun." He smiled back at me and said he would be right back.  

Kylie and Dan danced through the night. Kylie was happy and Dan looked joyous and radiant. I grew moody and was green with jealousy as my fiancee was dancing happily with another girl. A strange feeling overwhelmed me. I couldnt watch them dance anymore. I was left all alone at the corner while they were having fun! I stood up and dashed back to my room. I took a small dose of tranquillisers to get myself into dreamland. Not long after that i was fast asleep.  

 The clock strucked one and the pendulum went "tick tock". I opened my sleepy eyes and everything looked blurred. I sat up, rubbed my eyes and tried to figure things out. Kylie was not in the bed. I called out "Kylie?" No answer. I got down and opened the door. "They were still dancing," i thought to myself. "No, they wouldnt be dancing at this unearthly hour," I reasoned to myself. At that moment i heard a giggling sound coming from Dan's room. His door was ajar. My curiousity was aroused and i peeped in. Almost immediately i felt and agonizing pain in my heart. The hauting scent of Kylie's perfume hung in the air. It was Kylie! How could she? How could he? I hated them for their treachery. I stormed into the room and the two stood rooted to the ground, aghast.  

I ran to Dan and started hitting him with all my might. Kylie grabbed my hand and pushed me awat from Dan. I was swished and knocked my head on a loud crash and broke into pieces. Swiftly, i picked up a piece of broken base and whirled around. Kylie, not knowing what to do just stood there stiffly. I thrust forward and plunged the sharp object into her stomach. I stabbed her over and over again. My hands were smeared by her blood. Dan was hurt too when he tried to stop me. I was too strong and nobody could stop me. Hatred and anger filled my mind. Ther i passed cut.  

The police arrived the following day. I was handcuffed and brought away from the island. I stood on the deck, holding tightly to the railing. A devilish look appeared on my face. The island was a plce full of hatred and sins. It gradually faded away.  

The doctors proved that i was mentality deranged and placed me in a mental institution. I had lied to the whole world about my sanity in order to escape the clutches of the law. I couldnt admit it. I would be sentenced to death. If only i knew that Kylie was innocent. If only i knew that she was just discussing with Dan about giving me a surprise for my birthday.  

 I truly regretted that my impulsive actions had brought me into this terrible and pathetic situation. I had lost a friend. I had lost my fiancee. I had lost everything. I would be stranded here forever with the other mental patients. Tears rooled down my cheeks as i sobbed bitterly and wallowed in self pity.

Girly
[ ]skirts
[x]purse
[x]shopping
[x]make up
[x]bracelet
[ ]necklace
[x]pink
[x]shoes
[x]boys
[ ]posh
7 Girly

Boyish
[ ]baggy clothes
[x]black
[ ]swearing
[x]chains
[ ]skateboard
[x]rock
[ ]bikes
[ ]hang out with boys
[x]jacket
[ ]messy
4 Boyish

Nerd
[ ]thick books
[ ]tucked in shirt
[x]homework
[x]computer
[ ]smart^o^ hahaha...
[ ]extra h/w
[ ]thick glasses
[ ]loner
[ ]short trousers for school
[ ]neat hair
2 Nerdy

Emo
[ ]blood
[x]music
[x]bangs covering one eye
[ ]knife
[x]depression
[x]sadness
[x]black
[ ]cuts
[x]loneliness
[x]desperate
7 Emo

Multiply by 10.

Repost this as "i'm _%girly, _%
boyish,
_%nerdy, _% emo

RIGHT NOW....
01. is your hair wet?
--nu

02. is your cellphone right by you?
--yes of course

03. do you miss someone?
--i dun think so.. i miss no one

04.are you wearing a chap stick?
--what is that?? i heard before but
forgotten wht's the meaning..lol

05. are you tired?
--yeah...wanna sleep but can't.. :(

06.are you wearing pyjamas?
--no...it's late afternoon now...

07.are you mad?
--yeap!!!!

08.are you upset?
--yes i am!!

HAVE YOU
01. recently done something you regret?
--no..maybe later i will..

02.ever lied?
--yeah..hahaha

03.ever stick gum under a desk?
--yeap..hehehe

04.ever kicked someone?
--yes..everytime! i mean everyday..hahahaha

05.ever tripped over your own feet?
--erm..yea..

TODAY
01.have you cursed?
--yes..

02. have you gotten mad at someone?
--yes!!

03.is there a person who is on your mind
right now?
--LEEHOM!!!

04.do you have any siblings?
--yeap..my sista..

05.Do you want children?
--yesh they're CUTE

06.do you smile often?
--not now..last time..

07.do you wish on stars?
--sometimes

08. do you untie your shoes every time
you take them off?
--no..too lazy to do that..lol

09.do you like your handwriting?
--it's alright..

10.are your toenails painted?
--nope..but i want to...black! hahahaha

11.are you a friendly person?
--i think so

12.who's bed did you sleep in last night?
--mine of course..duhh!!

13. what color shirt are you wearing?
--PINK

14.what were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
--sitting on sofa waiting for my dinner

15.can't wait until
--tell you later...cant think of that
right now..lol

16.ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
--forgot...yea..maybe???

Im sick, complications once again. Yet after so long, such long moments of peace. Here comes hell all over again. Im falling, unable to fufill my promise and so i fell. I grasped the chain of fate yet ever so tightly but still, instead, the chain itself broke into pieces descending me into oblivion. I cant understand the system this world is standing on, i cant understand how it works, as though its never there? What should i do? Should i go against it; the way of life? Or should i just follow the flow, and rest by forever darkness, a world so dark filled with only solitude, be it sadness due to fear or fear due to death.

My life revolves around the silliest mistakes one could ever make. Im disgusted by my own ways. Wad am i to do? The fires of hell burns ever so violently, as though awaiting my descend. The fall of the Devil's Child. A carnge full of self love, yet trusted something as indisputable such as love and friendship. Maybe i was wrong. Or maybe i was not. Wad am i to do? OH Great one? Oh DARK one!

Heaven Be my Deliberator, hell be mine.

As my soul crawled the borders of cries,
My heart filled with nothing but sorrow,

Through the river of blood, my blood.
I saw thee, regrets.
It wasnt long before i was totally swept by fear,
I remembered, love.

The warmth felt like days in the summer,
The coldness felt like days in the winter.

Then i heard, a voice
it will pass like rain in the mountains,
Clouds in the sky. . .

Surrender your soul to forever darkness,
Rest your soul may be,
Rest thee upon the fires of hell,
and burn eternity.

I closed my eyes, and accpeted my fate.
It was then i lost my crown, my pride.
Darkness took me, ever so swiftly. . . .

And i was gone, in darkness.

LAST PERSON/PEOPLE

1. you were out with?
ah bengs

2. you spoke to?
my daddy

3. you were on the phone with?
no one..

4. you smsed?
my friends

6. you thought was hot?
LEE HOM

7. you bitched with?
you!nah..nope

8. you yelled at?
the dog

9. you wrote a testimonial to?
shujia

10. you took a photo with?
with a monster..

_______________________________________

HAVE YOU EVER

11. told someone he/she was hot?
YES OF COURSE

12. stared at someone for more than 2
minutes without realising?
i think so..

13. bitched about more than 3 people
in a conversation?
never..i guess i will when i'm damn angry..

14. been in love?
yes

15. harshly dumped someone?
yesh

16. wanted to kill someone?
no..

17. been called an emo?
yea..

18. cried because you were angry?
often :P

19. yelled at someone til the person
cried?
yeah..

20. liked someone of the same sex?
im not a lesbian...if like is "friend's
like"

_______________________________________

WOULD YOU CHOSE

21. to spend your birthday with 5 best
friends or 20 good friends?
depends..

22. flowers or chocolates on
valentine's day?
ahh...i want chocolates..im not into
flowers..

23. nutella or peanut butter on toast?
peanut butter on toast..

24. drums or guitar?
drums i think

25. a sexy sports car or a huge mpv?
what's a mpv?

26. to break someone's heart or to be
heartbroken?
break someone's heart..heeheehee

27. be alone or accompanied by others?
it depends
_______________________________________

DO YOU

28. believe in true love?
maybe

29. own an ipod?
yesh

30. have a diary?
yes an abandoned one

31. have more than 500 friends in your
friends' list?
nope..used to but i deleted about 200 of
them

32. wish you were someone else?
yeah...er..sometimes

______________________________________

WHAT IS

33. your most valued possesion(s)?
muahahaaha..money...$$$

34. the object that is closest to you
now?
my mic.. its infront of my mouth and is about to kiss me!

35. the last thing you do before going
to bed?
brush my teeth of course..

36. the first thing you think about in
the morning?
get out from my bed.....

37. your favourite vanity posession?
ah...none for this...i'd like to own an
eye liner..LOL
_______________________________________

LAST THING

38. you bought during a shopping spree?
clothes

39. you ate?
mango

40. you bought for someone else?
bought nothing...

41. someone got you?
no..

42. that someone said which made you
laugh?
my friends

I have learned something new today, that is, XIN RU DAO GE. It's a simplified Chinese. It means hurted like being cut by a knife in the heart. It is best to describe my feelings now.

XIN RU DAO GE £½ ÐÄÈ絶¸î

1. First Name: Yizen

2. Last Name: Teo

4. Place of Birth: Planet earth (;

5.male/female:female

6.Age: 14

7. Bus/Car: Car.

8. School: smk chws

9. Occupation: an angel ^^

10.Initials: -Z-

11. Screen Name: -ZeN-

YOUR APPEARANCE

12. Hair Color: Brown

13. Hair Length: currently short

14. Eye color: brown.

15. Best Feature: uh. dunno.

16. Height: 5 feet?

17. Braces: nope.

18. Glasses: nope.

19. Shoe size: 5

20. Diploma: no =)

22. First best friend: i dont have a best friend i have many of them

23. First Award: kindergarten.

24. First Sport You Joined: pre-school
volley ball team =D

25. First thing you did today: wake
up, brush teeth,shower.

26. First Real vacation: England

27. First thing you said
today: urggh.. 5 more minutes... zzz

28. First Crush: this really hot boy
in standard 6 ^^

FAVORITES

29. Movies: loads(;

30. TV Shows: the simpsons <3,
spongebob <33, america's next top
model ^^

31. Color(s): black white pink

32. Rapper: eminem and lee hom

33. Place to get groceries: Cold
storage.

34. Food: baskin robbins xD

35. Season: summer && winter <33

36. Candy: willy wonka (;

37. Sport: badminton

38. Restaurant: Loads

41. School Subject:
english!! recess time!!

42. Animal: Dog.

43. Book: pop princess.all-american
girl (meg cabot).

44. Magazine: alot.

45. Doing before you started this
survey: eating

46. Feeling: bored

47. Wearing: black spaghetti
strap.blue shorts.

48. Crying about: stress

49. Eating: the air. xD

50. drinking: skyjuice. get it?

51. Typing: fast ^^

53. Listening: You Guys Have to Be Happy (in chinese: ni men yao kuai le)

54. Thinking about: Tomorrow

55. Wanting: everything =3.

56. Watching: none.

57. Where do you see yourself in
5yrs: dunno.

58. Kids: a princess and a prince

59. Want to be Married: maybe

60.Career in Mind: dunno xD

OPPOSITE SEX

63. Hair color: brown/black =)

64. Hair length: short :]

65. Eye color: brown.black

 66. Measurements: tall!

67. Cute or sexy: err...cute...

68. Lips or Eyes: o_o

69. Hugs or Kisses: both XD

70. Short or Tall: tall d:

71. Easygoing or serious:
easygoing.

72. Romantic or Spontaneos: both

73. Good or Bad: good! although he
claims hes a BAD BOY. -.-""

74. Sensitive or spontaneous: both?

75. Hook-up or
Relationship: ...Relantionship


HAVE YOU EVER

78. Kissed a Stranger: wtf no.

79. Had surgery: no

80. Gone commando: Commando? wats that

81. Ran Away From Home:nope.

82. Broken a bone: nope

83. Got an X-ray: yesh

84. Been on a cruise: yeap

86. Dumped someone: yes..

87. Cried When Someone Died: yeap.. my beloved great great grandma

88. Cried At School: always

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

89.God: yesh

90. Miracles: maybe

91. Love at First Sight: depends

92. Ghosts: if im feeling scared

94. Soul Mates: yeah..

95. Heaven: guess so

96. Hell: guess so

97. Answered prayers: sometimes

98. kiss on the first date?: nah..

99. Horoscopes: a bit

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

100. Is there someone you wish you
had?
yesh..

Repost this with your own answers
as "100
Things About Me."

Can you feel my world? You're always pretending that im somewhere else. Never paid any attention to my existence, makes me wonder, am i even there? Can you feel it? the coldness, the warmth, the joy the pain, the things that i've felt? Wad am i to do without u? But you seemed ever so fine without me. yet happy. I spent my days missing the very thing i valued most, n yet i cant make up my mindon wad it was? Was it you? or somthing else?

Whos there? Knock knock? Is anybody there? Please hear me. . . i need you. So much, agony. Sadness in solitude. Although im already used to it, but, its painful. Wad am i to do? Wad am i to do? im lost, in the woods of broken dreams. My mind swap across borders of cries while my body laid still in soils of sadness. Legs held by forever darkness. So heavy. . . so heavy.

Today is a holiday, but i have to go to school! It's so unfair... Weekend have to study also >.<

But, things went same as what i expected. There's just 8 over 40 of my classmates came. Everyone's enjoying sleeping at home. Prefect board were having their camp that time. Cool, and there was no prefect and dicipline teacher in our scul. So i took my precious i-pod and handphone there ^^

Many people took benda** harams** there to. Some even brought their camera to take photos. It was just sooo cool when there was no prefect. But they've came back this afternoon. Tomorrow they'll be going to control the school again. SWT!

for ur information, 'benda haram' means banned things.

Life's not fair, and it's never fair.

Type ur reactions when somebody say
these phrases to u...

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?!
- yah hor why ar?

IJUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU
- N i just realised that i dun

LEAVE HIM//HER ALREADY. YOU'LL BE MUCH
MORE HAPPY WITH
ME - hahahaahahahaa, nope.

COME ON.SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO
- ya meh?? DUn FLIRT LA

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO
- JIAK SAI

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE
SOMEONE LIKE YOU
- Cool, im JESUS CHRIST! (jk)

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
- ahh GOD NOEs

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK
CONCERT.WANNA COME WITH ME?
- No i dun go to parks, i go shoppin
malls! :)

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE
IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
- Awww.. u MORON! im not CACAT!

I THINK IM FALLING FOR YOU
- Dun fall, dun kill urself.

CANT SMILE WITHOUT YOU
- hmm then dun smile lah , stupid

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST
ARENT HIM//HER
- ER? tats because im BI ?

NOTHING!
- ?

WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
- WHY? WAnan stalk me huh? Jiak SAI LAH

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE?
- wad dance>?

MAY I ESCORT YOU
- im not HANDICAP for CHRIST's SAKE!

DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM//HER TIL NOW
- Hmm, i dun love u if tats wad ur askin!

YOU ARE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I
WANTED
- awwww.. tats so sweet, but
surely ur everthing doesnt include my
cake in the toilet right? cause tat
would be like so DISGUSTIN! EWWW!

WHEN WILL I GET UR SWEET EYES?
- WTF!! MY EYES ARE SWEET>? U TASTE THEM
B4? OH GOD!!!IM FUCHING BLIND!!!!

 *just in case u dont understand, 'jiak sai' is kinda rude word, it means eat shit.*

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it
to be?
-alvin ^^

2. When shopping at the grocery store,
do you return your cart?
-sometimes..haha..

3. In a social setting, are you more
of a talker or a listener?
-being a listener the most...well..it
gotta depend..

4. Do you take compliments well?
- kinda...

5. Do you play Sudoku?
- no..it's not interesting either..

6. If abandoned alone in the
wilderness, would you survive?
-maybe...yeah!..hahaha...i would like to try
that..

7 . Do you like to ride horses?
- yes its exciting lol

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
-yeah..

9. What was your favorite game as a
kid?
- monopoly,scrabbers..duhh..lots!

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you,
what would you do?
- erhem.. juz if that's lee hom then i'll be the wildest eva

12. Could you date someone with
different religious beliefs than you?
-yeah!why not?

13. Do you like to pursue or be
pursued?
-to be...muaha!!

15. Do any songs make you cry?
-yeap! 'finally' by lee hom

16. Are you continuing your education?
-of course yes..

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
-hopefully i know...hehehe

18. If your house was on fire, what
would be the first thing you would
grab?
- my leehom's collections!

19. How often do u read books?
-yes i love it

20. Do u think more about the past,
present or future?
-future of course!!im a huge dreamer..!
haha!:D

21. What is ur favorite children's
book?
- em.. cannot remember

22. What color are ur eyes?
- dark brown..

23. How tall are u?
- 152 cm

24. Where is ur dream house located?
-somewhere in usa n canada!!!!!!!!!!!!
awwwww!!X]

27. Have u ever taken pictures in a
photo booth?
- yea..not really like it..

30. Where was the furthest place u
traveled?
-uk london

32. Do u like mustard?
- NO!!!!

33. Do u prefer to sleep or eat?
- sleep

34. Do u look like ur mom or dad?
- both..

35. How long does it take u in d
shower?
-usually more than 30 minutes

36. Can u do a split?
- nope.

39. What did u do for New Year's?
- had fun..go countdown..or stay at
home..

40. Do u think The Grudge was scary?
- i dont really fancy horror
movies..eeewww...

41. Do u own a camera phone?
- yea...

42. Was ur mom a cheerleader?
- lol.. no

43. What's the last letter of ur
middle name?
-i dont hav a middle name.. i suppose.. N?

44. How many hours of sleep do u get
a night?
-average 3 hours

45. Do u like care bears?
- no way!!

46. What do u buy at the movies?
- movie tickets?popcorns n drinks?

47. Do u know how to play poker?
- yes of course..

48. Do you wear ur seatbelt?
- yeah..for my safety's sake

49. How many meals do u eat a day?
- 2 seldom eat dinna

50. Is ur tongue pierced?
- nu..

51. Do u always read bulletins?
- sometimes

52. Do u like funny or serious
people better?
- both.

53. Ever been to L.A.?
-yesh

54. Did u eat a cookie today?
- nope.

55. Do u steal or pay for ur music
downloads?
- come on.download is the best to
describe steal.:D

56. Do u need a boyfriend/girlfriend
to be happy?
-no...what for??lol!!dont really need
that to be happy..

57. Are u easy to get along with ?
-yes i think

58. What is ur favorite time of day?
-ooo....i dont know..maybe spend the
whole day in my bed with the air-cond
turned on...lol!!

Valice, the city of lost memories. Where all hearts are kept pure; the second Eden.

Prologue : The Promised land . . .


Long ago, the world was at peace. Races lived amongst each other with much harmony. This 'world' was once called the living Eden, so pure and innocent. As time passes, the origins of purity began to fade; hence began the Sin era. Filled with greed, the different races fought; some fought for honor, others merely fought only to survive.

Countless sacrifices has been made, death circled around the lands. It was now a land of grief. As the races fought, death weighed even heavier.
Cries of suffering reverberated throughout the lands; a man 'Lucifer' saw too much sadness and could not see the meaning of existence vowed to end the world of its sufferings.

Lucifer, the great warrior; sliced his throat with his sword and his blood flooded the lands, erecting the Stream of Life. Large waves of spiritual energy covered the lands, destroying everything.

Upon witnessing the Stream of Life, thee remembered. The world they had been living in the past, a land so pure. The 'Promised' Land. Heroes rose in hopes of protecting the things the have come to love and the ones they loved. The bonds of love proved more overwhelming than death, "To put the ones you love above all things including yourself..." The effects of the Stream of Life was reversed.

Peace filled the lands once more, but still only a fraction of the world remains . . .

The reason behind my desperate hyper-activeness is quite unknown . The reason behind my foolish-ness or such childish acts. The reason behind the un-alertive behaviour and the care-free chracter. Its killing me. Influences from every where. No matter how many times i tell myself, how many times i've tried. I just cant get pass the three major things,

1. FEAR,
2. SOFT-HEARTEDNESS and
3. Laziness. . .

When issit gonna be? the time when the Real me takes over; im sick. Real sick. I wan to be that cold sophisticated demon again. Someone that brings fear not have them. For so long, only thiughts of courage haunt my mind. No actions were taken. Im lost. Am i on the right track? So happened after 3 months im back to square one asking myself the same exact question. Why am i such a failure? Im giving up drawing! OR should I? My time is almost over i fear, 'reincarnation' is at hand. Rise carnage Rise! Be once more the deliberator of fear and death, express the reason behind life and suffrings. Be God of this Forsaken WorlD. A world that has been losing its purpose and rights to existence as every single second passes by. . .

Im sick and tired of this world, when woud it be the time when i can create a new world!? full of purpose and reason to exist. Unlike now the corruption we see in our evervyday lives, the violence taking place, even in such unexpected places; school, etc. Why? Humans are indespicable things. They are such selfish creatures that eventually sacrificed the one very sacred thing ' friendship' . Is there even such a thing called 'friendship' ? If there is why do humans neglect or harm eachother? For are we not family? Are we not of the same species?

"Demons rise from the sea to take upon man and their brothers on their lands, the rise of darkness corrupted man henceforth, losing their rights to existence and immortality. "

Let me feel you again, the genius of geniuses. . . . .Carnage, the demon.

Emotions are a dangerous thing. They're like little children, innocent and naive. And when we're in love for the first time, they run wild like children in the park on a Sunday afternoon, full of energy and vigor, boundless and unrestrained.

But if a little girl was to fall, a bad fall, no one sees this poor girl. She looks up at the other children and hears their laughter. She cries as all little girls do but she stops after awhile, not wanting to dampen the other children's' happiness. So she sits and waits, hoping for someone to help her up.

A boy came and offered his hand; she began to smile as the sadness of a child never lasts long. She takes his hand and they take a few tentative steps, but as she began to put her weight on him the boy let go and she crumpled onto the grass again. The boy laughed, for he was only a bully.

The little girl was sad, but somewhere inside her she knew it was too good to be true and shrugged it off. She rested for awhile, then limped painfully towards a tree and sat in the shade. She's tired now and her leg hurts too much, she doesn't want to run around in the park anymore.

The day went on and although she was still hurting, she no longer cried, just rested and waited for the pain in her leg to subside. Indeed after awhile she feels much better. She thinks she's completely recovered. She stands up but as she tried to take a few steps on her own she crumpled like a rag doll. The little girl realizes her leg is broken. So she sits under the tree and watches the other children play. She saw some of them trip and fall and remembers her own pain. She thinks to herself, "how dangerous it is to run around the park without control or restrain..." She decides to build a wall around herself. She never wants to get hurt again.

She sits in her brick wall alone with her thoughts. She wonders when she'll dare to run again, from time to time she would sit on the wall and swing her legs, trying to enjoy herself and contemplating whether she had the courage to run again. Some children came along to encourage her but each time she came close to jumping off the wall back into the playground, the memory of her fall would return and she would retreat to the inner sanctity of her tiny fortress.

So there she hid, till one day she heard some scraping noises, as if someone else was building a wall. She peered over her wall and true enough there was a little boy, building his own wall, sadness in his eyes. She wondered if he had fallen just like her, while he was running careless and free. She watches the boy complete the wall and when he did so, he peered curiously at her before disappearing behind his own wall. The little girl wondered what the boy was thinking and one day the boy called out to her from behind his wall and she replies from behind her wall.

They begin to talk, in small muffled voices at first, and then clearer, as each of them removed a brick from their respective walls. Soon they became friends, and his voice was a comfort to her. But each time she removed a new brick, the light which flooded her hiding place frightened her and she was tempted to replace it. But also, with each new brick she removed, the sounds of the other children's laughter enticed her and she realized she wanted to run like before. But not alone lest she fall again. She wondered if the boy felt the same and thought about what she would do if the boy asked her to run with him. Again.

DAORAE ; Korean BBQ! It was a memorable night. The lightings, atmosphere; everything was perfect! Its something i've not tried before. . . a birthday dinner at DAORAE! The BBQ was great! The food, kimch (vegetables) Ahhh all so so so GREAT! Not to mention that it was the first ever time i went out with friends to eat in such an EXP restuarant. WooTs~ Almost thought we were already adults for a moment there. UN-believeable.

Hmm, its been so crazy lately. Cant possibly schedule myself down. Dont even know what im doing, and what i wanna do. So, worried that somehow i might afterall turn out to be useless by the end of the day.

Although, time passes ridiculously recently. All well spent i would say. Stupidly but happily i might add. Nothing further can add up to the amount of entertainment singing brings to my world. Really really enjoyed myself recently. Especially the frequent "ponteng" in sch. The skipping of classes. such fun. WTF! ya i know its wrong to skip classes. but the teachers don't really teach anyway. So not really a big issue.

Most importantly, things are finally starting to settle down. The first 2 months was sort of like a probationary period. Going around mixing with different groups of ppl. And now, the differences in characteristics are finally starting to materialize... Whom are you compatible to, whom u may wish to mix with n be able to blend in with. Im really glad that the ones i felt comfortable with n have no problems blending in with too have no probs in doing the same with me. Though, still no body is a 100% perfect. Cant really expect TOO much.

Think about it, nothing is permanent. Someday, somehow, our friendship we work so hard to forge n build will end in almost just anything. But until that day comes, i will b enjoying every single fraction of a sec i spent with them(friends). Cause i know, when that day really comes, i will not be regretting anything or even about having to meet them in the first place. At least, i will be satisfied.

Haiz, speaking of which it reminds me. I must get a grip of myself. Im getting out of control! I rarely touch my books anymore. Im always like this, talk no action. Even so, there is any action at all, it will only be nothing but a 3 min warning. haiz. im just so lazy. Whos gonna kick me n shake me to my senses? I wana be successful!!! I really wana be! But i know theres no point in just saying even. I have to prove it! YEs i will. I must rethink my strategies. Re-plan everything. It was a close call, i almost went overboard. Astray... what a dangerous path im taking. But thank god i realised it soon enough.

I still have time to set things right i hope. yeah i guess. . .

It had been quite a while since i've last touched the meaning or relived the feelings of happiness. It had never quite happened to me before. I this while i thought i was a lone-ranger, destined to walk a path of solitude. But i was wrong. Hence, i saw the light tat saved me from loneliness. It was a catastrophic experience, yet still powerful enought to make me cry.

It was a wonderful evening i had with a bunch of ppl that after so long; even i couldn't belive it, could finally call 'friends'. Weird eh? But it was nice, really nice. We ate, drank and did almost everything together. IT was reall fun. Just wish that such a feeling will not seek to disrupt itself. At least strong enough to mantain its current momentum.

Maybe after that warming evening. Haha, our friendship is getting deeper and stronger by the minute. But all this wont end i hope. I really hope. Though i don't really remember how did we ever get this thing going. How it even started... But why care? haha, let us just enjoy this every moement, together. .

Owch my pc is having a BIG BIG problem eh... So i decided to reformat it from last week but until now there was still no one coming to repair for me! Owh what the fish... XP

Maybe the computer repairman will come over tomorrow, so i guess it will take few days time to repair this. This is not the sad one, the sad one is i cant post for few days! >.<

Oh how i wish have a brand new computer or laptop beside me >.<

Be grateful to those who have hurt or harmed you,

for they have reinforced your determination.

Be grateful to those who have deceived you,

for they have deepened your insight.

Be grateful to those who have hit you,

for they have reduced your karmic obstacles.

Be grateful to those who have abandoned you,

for they have taught you to be independent.

Be grateful to those who have made you stumble,

for they have strengthened your ability.

Be grateful to those who have denounced you,

for they have increased your wisdom and concentration.

1-touch their waist
2-talk to them
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss them slowly


are you remembering this?


6-hug her
7-hold her
8-laugh with her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when you're
with your
friends


keep reading


11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more,
deny it.
fight
back
15-when her friends say i love her
more than you,
deny it. fight back and hug her tight
so she cant
get to
her friends. it makes her feel loved


Are you thinking about someone?


16-always hug her and say i love you
when you
see
her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE
WAIST
19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!


..20 u need to show her you mean it too


21-kiss her on the lips
22-DONT ask her to buy you stuff. you
buy HER
stuff
23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24-make her feel loved
25-buy her stuff. small things can
still help


we might deny it but we actually like
and kinda
want
you to get us things


26-DON'T LIE TO HER.
27-DON'T CHEAT ON HER.
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt message or call her in the
morning and tell
her
have a good day at school/work, and
how much
you
miss
her
30-be there for her when ever she
needs you, &
even
when she doesn't need you, just be
there so she'll
know that she can always count on you


are you still reading this u better be
its important


31. Hold her close when she's cold and
she can
hold
you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close
and kiss
her.
33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose;
(it will give her
the
hint that you want to kiss them).
34. While in the movie, put your arm
around her
and
then she will automatically put her
head on your
shoulder, then lean in and tilt her
chin up and kiss
her
lightly.
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even
jokingly or act
like
you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her


remember this next time you are with
her


36. When people diss her, stand up for
her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell
her
you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put
her
head on your chest so she can listen to
the steady beat of your heart, Link
your
fingers together while you whisper to
her as she rests her eyes and listens
to
you.
39. When walking next to each other
grab
her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your
arms as long as possible
41. Call her at night to wish her
sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and
wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night
44. Dedicate a song to her.
45. Always Remind her how much you
love her.


youll never know when she needs just a
lil more
love



Guys Repost: "i would do this for her"
Girls Repost: "45 things a girl would
want from their boyfriend..

[ ] Gotten a referral.
[x] Gotten detention.
[ ] Gotten your cellphone taken away.
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[x] Chewed gum during class.

TOTAL: 2

[x] Gotten late to a class more than 10
times.
[ ] Didn't do homework over 5 times.
[ ] Returned at least 5 projects in
late.
[x] Missed school cause you felt like
it.
[x] Skipped class at least 3 times.

TOTAL: 3

[ ] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you
out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher. (hardly, lolz!)

TOTAL: 4

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm.
[x] Went on myspace; friendster;
xanga; etc on the computer in the
library
[x] Took pictures during school
hours.
[x] Called someone during school
hours.
[x] Listened to an ipod/cd player/mp3
during class.

TOTAL: 4

[x] threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the classroom
without permission.
[ ] Broke the dress code.
[ ] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

TOTAL: 3

[ ] Gotten a call home
[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip
cause you behaved bad
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school
[ ] gotten a referral and ripped it up
[x] used passes from other days/ Or
made fake pass
[x] said a cuss word during class
loud enough so the teacher could
hear

TOTAL: 3

[x] sleeping in class
[ ] whacked teacher
[ ] threaten teacher
[x]felt hungry during class and went to
eat
[x] treat the teacher as invisible

TOTAL: 3

add up your score and times it by 4.
repost as __% Hated by Teachers

> If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months
and 6 days you would have produced
enough sound energy to heat one cup of
coffee.
(Hardly seems worth it.)

> If you farted consistently for 6 years
and 9 months, enough gas is produced to
create the energy of an atomic bomb.
(Now that's more like it!)

> The human heart creates enough
pressure when it pumps out to the body
to squirt blood 30 feet.
(O.M.G.!)

> A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.
(In my next life, I want to be a pig.)

> A cockroach will live nine days
without its head before it starves to
death. (Creepy.)
(I'm still not over the pig.)

> Banging your head against a wall uses
150 calories a hour
(Don't try this at home, maybe at work)

> The male praying mantis cannot
copulate while its head is attached to
its body. The female initiates sex by
ripping the male's head off.
(Honey, I'm home. What the...?!)

> The flea can jump 350 times its body
length. It's like a human jumping the
length of a football field.
(30 minutes..lucky pig! Can you imagine?)


> The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.
(What could be so tasty on the bottom of
a pond?)


> Some lions mate over 50 times a day.
(I still want to be a pig in my next
life...quality over quantity)


> Butterflies taste with their feet.
(Something I always wanted to know.)

> The strongest muscle in the body is
the tongue.
(Hmmmmmm......)

> Right-handed people live, on average,
nine years longer than left-handed people.
(If you're ambidextrous, do you split
the difference?)

> Elephants are the only animals that
cannot jump.
(Haha..Okay, so that would be a good thing)


> A cat's urine glows under a black light.
(I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)

> An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
( I know some people like that.)

> Starfish have no brains
(I know some people like that too.)

> Polar bears are left-handed.
(If they switch, they'll live a lot longer)

> Humans and dolphins are the only
species that have sex for pleasure.
(What about that pig??)


Now that you've smiled at least once,
it's your turn to spread these crazy
facts and send this to someone you want
to bring a smile to, maybe even a chuckle.
In other words, send it to everyone !
(and God love that pig!).

Can i post videos from YOUTUBE or whatever here? I've tried but i couldnt work.. Anyone teach me?

Guys cry because...

1. Girls screw them over...

2. They just got hit in the balls...

3. They're about to die...

4. Their heart is broken...

GIRLS: If you see a guy crying, hug
him close and hold him up as he gets
over the pain of getting kicked in the
nuts. Tell him he's not going to die,
and if he's crying over a girl... hug
him and kiss him and let him know you
won't screw him over and break his
heart like the last girl did. Guys
just want to know that our girls will
be there for us to support us when we
need them and help us get our mind off
the pain of heartbreak, getting kicked
in the balls, and knowing we're gonna
die.

---------------------------------------
--------------------------------------

Girls cry because...

1. They're sad...

2. They're scared...

3. They're nervous...

4. They're frustrated...

5. They're missing someone...

6. They're alone...

7. They're PMSing...

8. They're pregnant..

9. Their heart is broken...

10. They're in love...

11. Their souls have been torn...

12. THEY MET A BOY THEY CANT HAVE...

13. They fell in love with a boy...

14. They hurt so bad inside...

15. They're mad...

16. JUST BECAUSE THEY FEEL LIKE CRYING

BOYS: If any girl you know is crying
and you see them, don't just stand
there and say you're sorry. Hold them
and tell them everything will be okay,
even if you have no idea what is wrong
with them. Girls just want to be held
and know that someone cares about them

1. your fv songs?
Any songs by lee hom

2. What month were you born in?
april

3. Where do you live?
Malaysia, trg


D E S C R I B E Y O U R . .

4. Wallet:
Pink and BLack

5. Dream car:
BMW

6. Toothbrush:
Colgate? lolz

7. Jewelry worn daily:
earrings

8. Pillow Case:
pink

9. Eyes:
light brown

10. House color:
erm.. dunno how to describe

11. Love life:
dun talk about it.. haiz

12. Cologne/Perfume:
no way

13. CD in stereo:
loads of them..


14. Piercings:
three on my left ear,two on my right

W H A T A R E Y O U . . .

15. Wearing:
monokurobu pink pink t shirt

16. Wanting:
get to the place i love

17. The last thing you ate?
fish & chips

18. Something you are afraid of?
er...havent thought of that..

19. Do you like candles?
its romantic

20. Do you like the taste of blood?
kinda...heeheehee..crazy eh?


21. Do you believe in love?
depends

22. Do you believe in soulmates?
yeap

23. Do you like seafood?
ew no

24. Do you remember your dreams?
not always, but yes

25. Do you consider yourself a study
freak?
study freak? oh my god..i'm NOT!!!!

26. Do you like tattoos?
hell no~


27. Do you believe in miracles?
sometimes

28. Do you burn easily in the sun?
maybe..yes...

29. Do you speak another language?
yeah..

30. What's something you wish you could
understand better?
never thought of that...

31. Are you shy around your crush?

haha.. sometimes

32. Got any plans for the weekend?
sleeping..watching tv shows...

33. Do you miss anyone?
no...

34. Have you ever been in a beauty
pageant?
scul annual dinner

35. Orange juice or apple?
both..

36. Who were the last people you went?
nobody...my shadow..

37. What was the last text message you
sent?
forgot..hahaha

38. Lucky number?
4

39. Last time you ate a homegrown
tomato?
no..dont remember that..

40. Have you ever won a trophy?
yeah..

41. Are u a good cook?

lolz no

42. Have you ever eaten a snake?
eeewwww...i will never eat tht thingy!

43. Do the Chinese really use cats in
their food?
NO!

44. Have you ever had to wear a uniform
to school?
yeap...

45. What was the last movie u watch?
err...300?

46. Would you rather find true love or
be a millionaire?
milionaire!!!$$$$$$$$$

47. Do you believe in love at first
sight?
depends

48. What is/are your favorite animal
(s)?
dog

49. Who is the second last person to
call you?
er...i have no idea

50. What do you like about yourself?
i'm different among my friends..i mean
by interest n other things..

ITs sUnday Alredi, and after tat would be the first day of sch after the long over the week holiday. And guess wad? Its MONDAY BLUES all over again. Wad a great hope to rely on. New year had been fun, unlike any other. Lots of old frens kept in contact, most importantly the trusted ones.

But its kinda sad, knowing that such good times are about to end.Afterall, i was finally able to pull our friendship only so much closer that after he left, there was so much emptiness. Though like wad he said, maybe its because we dont seee each other everyday thats why. But i think theres more to it, but it puzzles me so much that why am i being so moody. Why i care so much bout him>? Issit something more than friendship? haiz, how many times have i asked myself such a question, beats me, i've lost count but i know its definitely not the first and will not be the last.

OUr very first meeting somehow started out funny. we got to know through another fren. IT was really cool. Thinking back though, brings alot of funny memories. Though sometimes awkward. Haiz.. really tired you, having such a feeling. Why ? why cant i just be hollow. Be a human who cant feel or have no feelings at all? Wouldnt that be great? A man without his heart, such blessings should've been brought. IT really really is tiring, painful.

Hmm, why am i feeling so sad n moody to day? Issit one of the infamous moodswings again? NOPE> dun feel like just any typical moodswings i've had before. ITs different. Its just empty u know.Like something important is missing, or like u've lost somthing important. Your dissappointed n sad. Dont know what to do. YOur GRUMPY!? hmm, feels like knocking on heaven's door unprepared.

Im lost, really lost. But i know, im really really really happy to have met such a friend. Whats beyond happiness may be nothing but lust.So hard ... its just so hard. Don't know what to do. . .

1. your name plus a Y?
// Zeny

2. What are you listening to right now?
// Can you feel my world by Lee hom

3. A part of a song lyric that's in
your mind?
// Take my hands and feel the world.


4. The highlight of your week?
// er... i dun think i hav one

5. What are you craving to have right
now?
// cashh

6. Any unforgettable childhood memory?
// a weird dream

7. A not-so-good childhood memory?
//i dun think i hav also

8. What are your nicknames?
// zenze

9. Your plans for tomorrow?
// sleep eat play =P


10. plans for today?
// sleep eat play

11. What do you want?
// sleep eat play

12. Say anything you like to whoever is
reading:
// haha...

13. Where you are right now?
// in study room

14. What do you like about the night??
// cool

15. If you were on a farm what would
you want to see?
// a blue sky with birds flying on it freedomly

16. When you were a kid, what
did you want to be when you grew up?
// doctor, becuz dad asked me to be


17. Last gift?
a necklace

18. Did you like it?
// sure.. its beautiful

19. Person you hate most?
// no one.. hating someone is like burning ur house to kill a rat in it ><

20. What makes you smile?
// chocolates and flowers

21. Have you had any relationships
this year?
// yea

22. Pulled an all nighter?
// hmm?

23. What are you thinking about?
// Lee Hom

24. Who was the last person you danced
with?
// alvin

25. What did you do today?
// sleep eat play

TEN FACTS
01. Hometown?
// trg

02. Natural hair color?
// a bit gold.. but i went to coloured it black

03. Initials?
// Z

04. Hair style?
// long

05. eye color?
// light brown

06. Height:
// 152 [i know im short -.-]

07. Pets:
// pepsi and wawa.. the two cuties

08. Mood:
// depressed

09. Where would you rather be?
// heaven

10. Last thing you drank?
// wine


TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:
01. Have you ever been in love?
// yea

02. Do you believe in love?
// depends

03. Why did your LAST relationship
fail?
// he doesnt care bout me anymore


04. Have you ever been heartbroken:
// yea

05. Have you ever broken someone's
heart:
// yes

06. Have you ever fallen for your best
friend?
// yes

07. Have you ever liked someone but
never told them?
// lol.. yea for 3 years

08. Are you afraid of commitment?
// yesh

10. Have you had more than 5 different
serious relationships in your life?
// no..

I'm sad... Feels like nobody understand me at all... Im not happy at all... I hate everything...

1. You hung out with?
~> friends..sometimes with my hottie mumma

2. You text?
~ friends and sista

3. You were in a car with?
~> families.. i guesS?

4. Went to the movies with?
~> dear friends

5. Went to the mall with
~> mostly friends

6.You talked on the phone to?
~> couzin

7. You kissed?
~> my winnie the pooh bear bear

8. Made you laugh?
~> friends..


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
WOULD YOU RATHER...?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
~> ew no way

2. Be serious or funny?
~> depends

3. Drink liquor or smoke green?
~> no way

4. Die in a fire or prefer getting
shot?
~awww..


5. Spend time with your parents or
your enemies?
~>parents lah ><

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

1. Sun or moon?
~> moon

2. Winter or Fall?
~> winter

3. Left or right?
~> between

4. Sunny or rainy?
~> sunny

6. Where do you live?
~> outerspace

7. How many kids do you want?
~> a princess and a prince

8. Do you want to get married?
~> with a prince :P

9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut
it?
~> twirl it

10. Have you ever eaten sushi?
~> sure and i love it

12. How many kinds of cereal are in
your cabinet?
~>4

13. Do you cook?
~> no..

14. Current mood?
~> boring..moodless..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


1. Kissed someone?

~> my winnie the pooh bear bear

2. Sang?
~> yes

3. Been hugged?
~> yeap

4. Missed someone?
~> yeah.. hinz

5. danced crazy?
~> haha no

6. Cried?
~> everyday

7. Lied?
~> no....

8. Loved someone you can't have?
~> nop

Repost this as, "Who was your last"

[x] got detention (being rude to the stupid teacher ><)
[x] hugged someone in school
[ ] kissed someone in school
[ ] gotten suspended
[x] made a friend

[x] cried in school
[x] wish you could take something back
[x] made new friends
[x] gone to a dance

[ ] watched a school football game
[ ] watched a school baseball game
[x] watched a school volleyball game
[ ] watched a school tennis match
[ ] watched a school softball game
[x] watched a school basketball game

[x] stood up for someone being made
fun of
[x] argued with a teacher
[ ] got kicked out of class
[ ] got sent to the office for getting
in trouble

[x] got a 100% on a test
[ ] walked to school
[ ] drove to school
[x] got dropped off at school
[x] heard a rumor about yourself

[x] missed school when you weren't
sick
[x] failed a test
[ ] failed a class

[x] made up some lame excuse for
homework not being done
[x] the teacher believed your lame
excuse
[ ] crushed on a teacher
[ ] hit on a teacher
[x] hated//disliked a teacher

[x] involved with a sport
[ ] student council
[x] in a club
[x] got a scholarship
[x] got an award

[x] fallen asleep in school
[x] had your phone go off in class
[x] had your phone taken away (wth =.=)
[x] lied to a teacher

[x] laughed so hard and you cried in
class
[ ] eaten lunch in the bathroom
[ ] missed more than a week at once
of school
[ ] Excited for summer
[ ] taking summer school

Add up your total and times it by 2
then repost
saying:
"school was __%WASTE OF MY TIME

Had my first rock climbing experience yesterday. Well, technically it wasn't the first, I've done it once like 3 years ago but that was completely shit compared to yesterday. I made it all the way up to the ceiling of Marley Sports Hall...which I'm quite happy about...even though it was my millionth try. Haha both forearms are aching like shit now though. I guess I've never used my forearm muscles before considering how Taekwondo & Wushu only trained up my upper arm muslces and my shoulder muscles. Aaaaaah I miss martial arts sooo much!!! I would give anything for there to be Taekwondo lessons in school. All they got is Aikido or Karate or Judo or whatever...which I'm so not interested in doing cuz I would have to start from the beginning again. I miss my Nike Black Belt uniform laaaa....miss my brand new black belt which we spent so long to learn how to tie. *bleurgh* Only been a black belt for a year and then I have to stop. So depressing! OMG I miss Taerobics even more!!! Miss the times Steffi and I would crack our heads open trying to choreograph a whole routine...well it was more of Steffi's cheoreography but I chipped in...occassionally =D

Good news is I'm going back in 23 days which is cool. My flight's at 10a.m. in the morning so I get to skive school and arrive back home early. ^_^ Got my grades last week...the effort marks I was really pleased with. 7S for Japanese!!! =D But the grades were kinda slipping, dunno how my tutor said that they improved. Wasn't too happy bout them...Math especially. Ah well, best way to damage my ego would always have to be bringing my Math grades down. Dammit... Note to self: Stop being so proud of my Math skills...which aren't that great. Bruagh!

And another thing, registered with Dr. Fugard for my extended essay today. I hope I'm picking the right path for it and that I won't regret it when I'm in the middle of it. I never considered myself a nerd seeing as how I'm the queen of slackers but WHY DOES MATH APPEAL TO ME SOOOO MUCH!?!?! xD

K lar...I've been blabbering non stop. I'm covered in oil paint, accrylic paint, dust and clay. Oh joy..

Am excited about how my new art piece is going to turn out. Hopefully it'll be good. *Fingers crossed*

It's Saturday again!! Finally get to cook cook cook. Haha see before I came here I never thought that I would be a 'cooking' kinda person. Always thought that I was quite hopeless at cooking. =P Hmm so far the stuff I attempted to cook turned out good. I wouldn't say they're 5 star gourmet quality...but it tasted good enough for everyone to like it. YAY!

Hmm Angela's in Cambridge and Tonia's in london. SO BORED LAAAH!

Better get to work la...

Once again, im finally free. XD

Urgh im so boring, can anyone suggest me what to do when im boring? I dont have any commercials and photo shootings these days... Bored -.-

Yay! Back to my normal life again, posting and posting. A great news to tell, WE WON! =D

I'm sooooo happy with that, and my friend recorded the comments of judges.

Mrs Amilie Jameson -> It's creative and i just love it. *thumbs up* =)

Mr Robbie -> It might be the best compared to the others, but i think that if i'm a kid i won't be interested in this game, because i play for games, not for maths. For teenager, that's exactly what they need. And lastly, i hope that you can do something like 3 in 1, i mean Kids + Teenagers + Adults. Keep it up.  

Mr Christopher Sward -> Brilliant *a smile*

Mrs Alexandria Patrick -> It's lovely *claps* (she's cute)

That's all. Fair enough fair enough. Haha...

Hey, sorry for not posting for some time. Busy with school work including sports day, exam PROJECTS! Can't wait to have a rest... >< Haiz, tomorrow is the presentation day, dont know whether we can handle it or not... We seems like not very well prepared if compared to our opponent... But i've put so much effort in it! Hope we'll sucess. Hm... Our topic of presentation is, 'One World One Dream'. They asked us to invent a new software or a game to bring out the meaning of OWOD. For sure, we choosed GAME. =D So we invented a game, its like Google Earth. After you install it and open it, the first thing will appear is the Earth. It can turn around for you to choose which country you wanna go first. Its 2D. (im just a kid i have no ability to do 3D things haha)

Hmm... You can go anywhere you like at the first but in the mission of saving poor peoples. Like if you choose Africa, and you'll see many kids studying under a tree, and you'll have to help them. Just click on one of the kid, and it'll appear some mathematic questions and you'll have to solve it to go to another country that you like. Some countries like Italy, don't have maths. Its a bit special so i decided to introduce it.

When you've reach Italy, the first thing is to click on the Court and go inside. You'll find out some people who're innocent and bad guys were caught. You have to choose one person no matter she's/he's innocent or not. You'll have to help them to find the evidence (just like CSI) to prove that they're not bad people. But if you've choose wrongly like if you've choose a bad guy and help him, you'll have some punishment, such as solve mathematic questions in 30 seconds or whatever. If you can't succeed, then you'll have to start again from the first country. But it was nothing difficult i think, because you can have a password in each country and if you lose u can use the password if you remember but you have no credit anymore. Isnt it interesting? =)

 First, it can be use to 'phsyco' *hahaha* people to help other that needs, then also can play some mini games and solve maths. But its ilegal to sell it. We don't have any license although we want to. I hope that game directors will read this post of mine and do something like mine. I really wish that this type of game really legal and everyone can buy it no matter adults or kids. Its truely something brilliant of mine XD

If im not wrong, our opponent use the topic 'GreenWorld'. Its also a game. But mine was kinda like more 'adventure' i think. Because they're like more The Sims, can create personalities and so on, then have to plant everywhere. No lose. no win. Just plant. (Haha no offend) But something they'd win us, they use 3D! Wow i wonder how did they do it.

We've given 6 months to prepare it. Gosh I really hope we can win! Then we can have prizes like a computer in Windows Vista, and a video cam, and watch, and tickets to LONDON, and blabla bla bla bla... SO many things are waiting for us =D God please let us win ><

Silly Quotes from Good Quotes website:

-Copywight 1994 Elmer Fudd. All wights wesewved

-Dain bramaged

-OUT TO LUNCH: IF NOT BACK BY FIVE, OUT FOR DINNER ALSO

-A repair shop:
WE CAN REPAIR ANYTHING. (PLEASE KNOCK HARD ON THE DOOR - THE BELL DOESN'T WORK)

-The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese

-Ambition is a poor excuse for not having enough sense to be lazy.

Which one is funnier? XD

I've hang out with my friends today. We went to a badminton competition, because we have friends take part in that competition. The competition ends, and we're about to leave. Suddenly a 30+ age looking man stopped us. He asked us whether we wants to join his badminton class or not in English. He said he came from Kuala Lumpur and he's a super  coach. He's once Taufik's coach in. =.-

Then of course, i use Englsih to reply him also. I told him: Er... Hah we're not interested. That's normal rite? Then he said: Oh you know how to speak English? I thought **Terengganurians** were all poor in English. *wtf* If we don't know English, do you think we'll understand what he's talking about and reply him in a very good manner? He's probably saying that we're all somewhat uneducated. Straight away my friend replied him: Oh, iZZit? Nah we're all english educated. And you have grammar errors just now. You should be saying 'im from kuala lumpur' instead of 'i come from kuala lumpur one'.

Lol that was funny. But in other way around, why would he think that **Terengganurians** doesnt know english? Well english is juz a VERY SUPER DUPER HYPER common language rite? Or its not about Terengganu, its about Malaysia?

Come on Malaysia, don't let people see us in this way --> uneducated + lazy + noob! Its unfair to us!

Complicated... Why life can be so complicated yet we were borned simple?

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Yesterday i finally had the chance to meet a very not so long but almost felt like we've known each other for a long long time fren. Hmm weird feelings sometimes i have bout him. Really weird. It makes me hollow. As though something is missing when hes not around. Yup, like he said "we dont get to see each other everyday, that why." Sounds logical, but i believe theres more to that. But whu knows for the moment.

Hmm the very first day of our meeting was how to say, funny. Hmm we were like total strangers, but after tat we like spoke alot. As time progresses i felt a kind of bond between us. Strangely, it was .... haha.. Either way, im really really happy to have met him.

Tomorrow's my daddy's birthday! But i don't know what to give him as a present... >< A wallet? No, he loves the one he use it right now. A cake? Its better to bake myself, but i don't have the ingredients and im out of time! NO... Erm... Prepare breakfast for him tomorrow? But i, can consider as a pig! I wont get up early plus tomorrow's a holiday! Well, maybe i can make it... Can anyone suggest what should i giv??? HELP ME PLEASE~ ><

Sorry dear, sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. Although its all over... Remember one thing. I love you forever.

Finally, exam's over! As usual, i won't expect to take A's in it. :P Btw this time quite easy, i think i can handle it =)

Nothing to write actually, just  kinda bored. And disappointed. =( Can anyone cheer me up?

Sorry for not posting about 1 week, haha. Cuz CNY's juz past and my school's having Sport Day. Busy teaching, but unfortunately i can't even attend when Sport Day! Guess what? Did u guys know that the super star Lee Hom is coming to Malaysia for a consert in KL? It's tomorrow! I'll be going to his consert as i'm his super fans~ Lol... Then i'll be back to KT on the coming Monday. Cool! Can't wait to see him on stage presenting his love songs and hip ones! I think tonite's going to be fantastic!

It's the second day since i've been using this blog an hour ago. =) Just have a video talk with my sister in Australia and found out that she's quite happy staying there instead of getting homesick like usual. Lets talk about having a brother. Well i'm quite happy playing with my friend's brother and i wish i can have one too. No matter a younger or a bigger one. But my mummy doesn't want any kids anymore! She told me it was a busy matter to having more kids. Gosh i wish i can adopt one if i really can!

Quit posting in Blogspot for sometimes, then turn out to Windows Live Space, then to Xangam, Tblog, and i decided to honour ShoutPost as the last stop of my blog.  I specified my blog as my online diary, to let all my memories printed at here. Lastly, i think i won't be closing my WLS, let it be my spare tyre. I'll be in time to post some of my ups and downs this week tomorrow. Chiauz.